It wasn’t always this way. Words haven’t always meant so much to me. I didn’t always grasp the impact of a word, or the chasm created by the absence of words. Now I seem to have a love affair with words. Sometimes I choose to keep them to myself, and sometimes I use them to express my heart, and sometimes I use them to make someone else feel good, but unfortunately, sometimes my words have made someone feel bad.
Recently, our son said “mom, you don’t talk to us the way that you used to – you’re not as kind and patient as you were before”. Before what? My heart broke, and I thought long and hard. It seems that the pressures of my current life and challenges were really getting to me. Due to the necessary busyness of my life, I now believe that my relationship with my Lord began to suffer. The branch, had become disconnected from the Vine. The fruit that had existed on the branch, was beginning to shrivel and rot. This manifested itself in short-tempered and harsh attitudes and speech. As I wrote this post, I realized something else. My son had been witnessing his mother as she worshiped God on Sunday, and then she returned home as a hypocrite.
I make no excuses for myself. Yes, the demands are great, but do I have the same power in me that raised Christ? Yes, it is available to me as a Christian, but if the branch is disconnected from the Vine, I am also disconnected from His power. This is the power that could enable me to have grace on my tongue, no matter what my circumstances.
Now we’ve come full circle. Why do words mean so much to me? One word – legacy. I want to leave a sweet legacy. As it has been said, “taste your words before you spit them out”. I want my words to be silent when appropriate. I want my words to be carefully measured, with exactly the right amount of grace combined with truth. I want my words to be merciful, encouraging and uplifting. I want to be speaking these words for the rest of my life. I want these words, to be the words on my lips, as I speak my very last.
I am the Vine, you are the branches. Those who remain in Me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from Me, you can do nothing. John 15:5